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Life Is but a Prototype

Life... what a joke. A never-ending circus of disappointment, heartache, and shattered dreams. It's like being trapped in a decrepit carnival where the rides are broken, the clowns are sinister, and the cotton candy tastes of anything but sweetness.   Welcome to the twisted reality we call existence?   Every day feels like a relentless battle against the monotony. We wake up, drag ourselves out of bed, and trudge through the motions like mindless automatons. We chase after success, love, and happiness, only to have them slip through our fingers like sand. It's a cruel game engineered by some sadistic force beyond our comprehension, and we're the hapless players, forever chasing after elusive prizes. Life, in its infinite complexity, throws us curveballs at every turn. We are plagued by uncertainty, by heartbreak, by the inevitable specter of loss. We build castles of hope, only to watch them crumble into ruins before our very eyes. Life delights in its cruel sense of irony,

On Dissatisfaction, Codependency, and Poignancy

It's no secret that I have a rather bitter, if not downright cynical, outlook on life. And how can't I? I've lost a lot and gained very little, though not completely through no fault of my own. Still, one can't help but think all hope for a full, happy life is lost when one walks in my shoes. Don't get me wrong. I simply wish to voice out my frustrations. Nothing more. I don't want your pity. In my 26 years of existence, and relatively happy 5-6 years of those, I can't seem to recall the last time I truly felt happy and content. Even if in recent years I did feel some semblance of happiness or joy, it would soon turn to ashes, quickly burned out by nasty things lurking in the corner, ready to jump it at any given time. Being self aware at such a young age is a nightmare to kids everywhere, but oh well, what's done is done, yeah? But I'm not gonna lie. It turns your life into a waking nightmare. I remember being almost always dissatisfied with the qua

Final Conclusion

This is the last time Hear me out Insanity peers Worst fears come to life Silent enemies revel A deer in headlights Molten heart Dried-up wells of tears This is the last time Hear me out Mind prison Visceral love Guttural whispers Divine blessing Eternal damnation Abysmal gaze This is the last time Hear me out A longing past A sorrowful present A dreary future Never was Never is Never will be This is the last time