Check #1

 Recently, a realization dawned upon me:

"I'm not in control. I've no control over my life, my feelings; let alone fate."

Can I really ward off the urge to leave? It's been extremely hard to just even function and maintain appearance.

Despite my efforts, I'm not so sure if I can stay for another year. Help — professional or otherwise — can only do so much for you and can only keep you around for so long.

I will be posting more things like this when I can. In the meantime, I have something I need to deal with, fast.

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